Sunday, August 1, 2010Today decided to EMO awhile before i sleep..
(must be my MENSES!!! make me feel soo much to emo and be troubled about!)
firstly, erjie is FINALLY pregnant... i'm HAPPY for her.. another NEPHEW OR NIECE.. yippee.. soon another CUTIE PIE will call me.. "XIAO YI XIAO YI!!!" love them la!!! but i'm sad that my MID-SEM holidays cannot go out and play.. then.. MUM who is lazy to travel ALONE to Melbourne.. sooo she's NOT visiting me.. DUPER SAD.. but i really look forward to the ALPHA CAMP.. because that's the MOST HAPPENING thing will happen during the MID-SEM holiday... eh.. other then that.. nothing much..
secondly, i'm worried about myself and my studies.. the one who doing project with me like fail soo many courses.. make me worried about my own ability to do well.. i should be thinking of getting more HD.. and not thinking about fail.. if i keep thinking about FAIL FAIL FAIL.. i have like LOST the battle even before i start right? haiZ.. i really must get my mentally back to positive!!! FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING project will due next tuesday.. and my teammate never reply me.. like WTF? what happen?! haiZ.. i duno should i call or not? hate this uncertainty... FML!!! sometimes i feel like crying.. i really worried that i can't follow the pace here.. it's too fast.. the lecturer is too RELAX.. they really talk and talk.. don't really care u understand or not.. and the ANGMO who is really DARING.. will DARE to ask.. "i never get what u say just now.. can u repeat?" BUT not asians la.. argh.. which is ME! hahaha.. although i noe that i cannot catch up.. but i'm si bei GL... cos i dun wan go revise and read my TEXTBOOK.. i si bei asshole right? ARGH.. but it's stupid la.. for the asshole commercial law.. haiZ.. i really dun wan study it la.. okie okie... tml i will study.. cos i got break.. BUT you know wat.. i have some STUPID interview tomorrow.. haiZ.. i actually joined because i wanna know more friends la... but.. i really don't know.. came here become very not ENTHU in these all things!!! haiZ.. i sometimes think.. i should be satisfy with my own life NOW.. but.. we always want MORE.. unlimited wants.. but there's limited resources soo there's ECONOMICS!!!! hahaha.. my lecturer teach de hor! ahaha.. but anyway.. i tot i can be happy with my life now.. cos i think without frens.. i can concentrate in lecture more.. but the HEART and the FEEL is really TOTALLY different from poly.. you wont look forward to school anymore.. but.. i know that i need to go school la! FML la! so if u wan MORE FRIENDs right.. go join some CCA la.. but WOAH LAU.. sian lei.. and for myself.. i SUPER DUPER LOVE to sleep late!!!! which i cannot!!! cos i will headache or dizzy... and this makes me don't feel like listen to lectures!!!! FML right? i must adjust adjust... then here de servings really HUGE.. and people keep stressing me and em-phasing to me that.. YOU BETTER WATCH OUT UR WEIGHT.. though they never say it soooooo DIRECTLY... but when i read someting that is like near to this.. the sentence will become like tat.. it really gives me pressure and stress nor.. woah lau.. why can't i enjoy my life like others... FML.. i just wanna eat la!!!=( haiZ.. again.. i must ADJUST again.. i tink i will go GYM on either monday or tuesday since i got 3 hours break.. BUT LET'S SEE FIRST LA AR.. SOOO THERE'S SOO MUCH THINGS TO BALANCE.. STUDIES, WEIGHT, PROJECT, COOKING, and... BLAH BLAH BLAH... WOAH LAU.. i really kinda regret coming.. okie.. STOP STOP STOP!!!
but.. the MOST irritating thing is..................................
MY FUCKING iPHONE IS SPOILED!!!! CB LA!!! i really don't know should i go REPAIR it or not? cos.. it's like TWO FREAK WEEKS.. i cannot live without it la!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! i SI BEI du lan can!!!=@!!!! how?! what should i do?! i really going CRAZY...
SERIOUSLY i don't know what i want la... WHAT I WANT SIA?! omg!!!!!
i need sometime to think and sort it all out first ba..
for now..
i shall turn in and REST..
cos the CB CRAMP is coming again!
FUCK IT!!!
anyway..
there's soo much i haven't type..
but i'm tired already..
tomorrow will be a BETTER DAY..
god bless...
8:48 AM |
